“If God gives you a watch, are you honoring him more by asking him what time it is or by simply consulting the watch?”
~ A. W. Tozer
Throughout the many years I’ve been writing and blogging, I have often spoken about the importance of honoring the unique person each one of us was created to be – whether you believe it due to genetics or spirit – and to be that person. That in not living true to who we are, we are dishonoring this creation. It has basically become my mantra, and I have talked of the need for learning to really listen to our heart, and our spirit, as they guide us into being the individually designed person that we are. A person with a unique purpose and path in this life.
But there is more.
We also need to honor the Road. The gravel-y, pot-holed, ridiculously grainy, bumpy road. The road where we ran out of gas, lost tires, felt more lost than ever, and at times thought would never end. We need to honor the road … the events both glorious and grievous that have come to us along the way, as these are the very things that have also given us the means of shaping us into the beautiful gift of who we are today. Yes, it has become rote to say we are grateful for the things that have happened – mostly because we feel they’ve brought us to where we are today. There are countless songs written about ‘the broken road’ … but these challenges – these roads where the GPS doesn’t work – not only take us to certain places, but can also help us recognize and become the unique individual human being we were intended to be, as well.
Many years ago, I briefly dated a man who I thought was everything I’d been looking for. He reminded me of my love for the woods and mountains, and of a piece of myself I’d long laid aside. The relationship didn’t last long, and when the inevitable breakup happened, I was devastated far beyond what it seemed I should have been, given the circumstances and short nature of the liaison. For years, I tried to understand the “why” of it all, and even though I could see many of the answers … a deep spiritual growth, among them, that led to my first website … there was still something missing. There was, or so I thought, a “reason” beyond what I could find. What I couldn’t see, all those years ago, was that the road itself – those challenges and questions; the oil changes and flat tires – it was all there to bring me to person I was to become. Not just to where I am now … but to who I am.
We all struggle, we all go back-and-forth between the ‘who’ we think, or are told, we are supposed to be … and ‘who’ we know – deep in our heart and spirit – that we, in fact, are. The road through those difficult times took me on a journey of breaking through the façades of life, re-birthing me as the ‘who’ I was conceived to be, right from the beginning. So to honor the road, with all of its twists & turns and sometimes seemingly insurmountable mountains – and to recognize and understand that it is a gift to us – is an important step in becoming all that we are created to be …… that person the DNA deep in our cells cries out for. To realize that it is all vital to our growth and our be-ing, allows our heart to be open to recognizing the signs as the next turn approaches.
But again there is more. And it is what trips up so many of us … the stepping off.
Stepping off, as defined by Free Dictionary, is “a place or point from which one leaves for unfamiliar regions.” Without action – without beginning to do the thing that is you (ie: putting our foot on the gas pedal) – we sit stagnant, staring helplessly at all of the unopened gifts and lessons that our road and our lives, to this point, have brought to us. It is, in essence, distrusting … scoffing at … it all. “If God gives you a watch, are you honoring him more by asking him what time it is or by simply consulting the watch?” If we know, if we listen to the clamorous call from deep inside our genes, if we begin to truly recognize who we are – who we were uniquely created to be from the tiniest of molecules of clay that became “us” – if we know the gifts we have, and choose to continue turning aside from them …….. is it not like being given a beautifully wrapped present, only to wait, looking day-in and day-out at the pretty package, letting it sit unopened for all eternity?
Maybe it’s time to accept the gift graciously, open it, and step off into the beautiful world of being all that we are. ❤